10 Life Lessons I Learned from 2020

Happy New Year!

I don’t know what to type but this is the thing I wanted to share, as of the moment. Last 2020, life becomes up and down due to the unexpected pandemic, lockdowns and everything in between that totally affect us all.

Plans, vacation trips, short visits and etc., can be rarely done resulting me to learned this life lessons. As this new year becomes a new start, I would like to share this not just for me to understand deeper things in my life but looking forward to hear someone out what lessons I learned.

1. Family is important.

As the pandemic strike worldwide, most news I heard not just from the television but also to some of my friends online and offline lost a family member. This is very depressed as the pandemic needs to practice health safety measures in order not to spread the said virus, and to the point that they can’t see or visit a love one in person makes me think that I must cheerish things as well as moment I have with my family. I am already an orphan but I still have my Aunt who’s there to ask me things out and I am very grateful to have her.

2. Emergency fund is a must.

Yes, definitely! Who knows until when we do have work? Does our income stable enough to feed yourself or your family, buy our needs not to mention our wants too? So, emergency fund is really a must have, not just for parents but to every individual. ☺️ Thankfully, my employer taught me things when it comes to handling my finances back in 2017, I was thinking to write a blog post for that maybe this end of January.

3. Learn to heal first.

Healing ourselves not just physical but of course mentally and emotionally be our thing. 2020 put me in a depressive year as things drained me mentally and emotionally. I am very grateful that I do have this platform to share things out and also my sisters in Christ who become my wall and rant person. 🖤

4. Everyone makes mistake.

Everyone makes a mistakes and so do I. Its okay to makes mistake as I am not a perfect person but one thing I learned that when I made a mistake I should tell things what truly happened and stop telling lies. Truth will always win.

5. Stop holding grudges.

Holding on to grudges is really a big no-no. It will drain you out and it feels like you carry the whole world in your shoulder and letting them go, feels great. Forgiving myself from the past mistakes and missed opportunities would be the best rather than holding them on.

6. Ask forgiveness to those people whom I hurt.

As the whole year 2020, honestly I guess I hurt not just one, or two close people around me but a lot. But then one thing that life in year 2020 taught me, to ask their forgiveness. That way, I am able to concentrate and channel my regrets the feeling of being sorry for myself. After all, knowing to myself that I ask their forgiveness although it is not that easy to forgive as I am very aware that I did things that hurt them.

7. Stop doing the same mistake.

Some says “Once is enough, twice is too much” and I felt that. I learned that a mistake must done once but doing it again and again becomes a decision.

8. Love yourself.

Loving myself first becomes a vital part of me after my break up thingy. Learning to love me back becomes hard but knowing things what I truly want is very rewarding as I slowly learn to know me more. Loving ourselves first made me think that how can I love others if I can’t love myself at the very first. ☺️

9. Self care is important.

From break up recovery to rush academic year in college, I learned that self-care is very-very important. We are all humans that needs to prioritize our mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual self too. So, taking care of ourselves is crucial as we are not robots that doesn’t feel any exhaustion in life.

10. Live in your world, not from others.

After all, life is more than this. Living the best life in our own world is great than living in others. We are here on purpose and we will rock this on our own. Imagine that if we live in the world of others, how can we make our own world becomes wonderful in our own? We can’t right? So, stop living in other world and start on your own.

That’s it, a year filled with everything. I hope I could share more life lessons I encounter in this year 2021, but this is just for now.

Until next post, thank you so much for reading.

How about you? What life lessons 2020 taught in you? Share them in the comments below. I would love to know them.

Lets be friends!

Unhealthy Habits I Want to Quit from Myself

November is ending and I keep on evaluating myself, from break ups, some on’s and off, stress attacks, regrets that keep haunting me and etc. that could probably lead my brain into some habits that I’m not very into and up to now I am slowly removing them from myself.

Being an orphan is not easy, there’s always a lot of times that I need my pillow and blankets in order for me to cope and hid such pain I feel, because there’s no one (in my own belief that is willing to listen, in my emo’s and ekeks in life aside from Mama) but I wanted to share too but I was afraid to get judge. So, sometimes I just change the names, scenarios things or places when asking advice to my friend or relatives because I AM SCARED TO BE JUDGE, if I put myself or use myself when asking things. Also I may not very good in communication towards others especially to the things from my side. I know I’ve been so harsh to myself but I don’t really know where to start but I’d like to be this first step improving and putting myself in a better place. So here’s the list of my Unhealthy Habits that I need to quit from myself:

1. Stop lying to myself.

Yes, I am very guilty with this. I used to fake things out before for me to believe but then I ended up lying to myself more and more. I could even understand why I was doing it and then, I can’t take it anymore it leads me to anxiety and depressive way.

2. Stop being anxious.

We can’t tell ourselves not to feel anxious but sometimes life happen unexpectedly and there I have it, I then got anxiety attacks without knowing it.

3. Stop doing things in order to fit in.

I know, I wanted to stop lying to myself and so pretending to be in order to fit in a particular group or things would be a no-no. Chasing things that doesn’t suit me or my personality could also be another habit that I need to get rid of.

4. Stop pleasing others.

As a student, most of times I’ve been notice this in myself that I am pleasing others but in my mind I was telling things that no, I shouldn’t done that. But then, I keep on doing it so it’s on the list too.

5. Stop dwelling on my past mistakes.

Proven guilty with this. Maybe those regrets that keep on haunting me needs some peace too, and my move is to ask forgiveness rather than escaping it, because life still haunting me.

I may have done things that is not right but here I am starting again because life never ends. We may partake to death but living in this world full of regrets, mistakes (though we cannot avoid this) continuously lying to myself would be the biggest part I cannot take back as time went out.

I want to consistently track myself thru this blogging platform so I am journaling online.

Thank you so much reading the post!

Until next post. See yah!