Three Month Wrap-up

Hello September! πŸ‚

Fall season just started in any other countries, but here in the Philippines you can still feel its humidity in the afternoon and cold breeze in early morning (around 4-5am) because at 6am its a little bit warm already.

I can still remember back in my hometown when September comes people around the village used to play their amplifier some Christmas Carols especially the famous song of Jose Mari Chan. πŸ˜… (whenever I see girls and boys selling lanterns on the street … 🎢 Just kidding! Hahahah)

Back to this Three Month Wrap-ups β€” June, July and August seems like a bumpy month of my 2020. Things went tough especially on June, I broke up to my 5 yo-relationship. I had sleepless night before the break up thingy, I was the one who had a problem so … for the good of the relationship and for her I decided to put it off. It was a hard decision actually but then I need to.

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Weeks & month pass after my biggest decision. I slowly see myself feeling depressed, had overthinking, sleepless nights became intense and regrets slowy sinks in so, in short I was trying to live in the past. Most of the time I was crying the whole day, desiderate to hear my Mama and Papa’s voice to ease even a little pain I’m experiencing.

Those actions continue until the very last week of July, when I saw a random quote on my IG feed stating that;

Growth is painful.

Change is painful.

But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.

Mandy Hale

I actually read this 5-6 times for my brain to process the message that was trying to tell, because if I don’t then probably I am still a mess.

This is a long process, but I started and slowly forgive myself for what I have done. I began seeking help and wisdom from my family, Godly words from my church mates and have 3 online sessions of therapy.

It was uneasy but progress I have seen is so beneficial not just physically, emotionally, mentally but of course spiritually.

As of the moment, I am happy recovering and I want to start this month full of energy, rich in insights and more.


Thank you so much for reading. We/I will always have a down moment of life but please do remember Life is beautiful, to put our time in waste for nothing!

R.

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