Hello September! ๐
Fall season just started in any other countries, but here in the Philippines you can still feel its humidity in the afternoon and cold breeze in early morning (around 4-5am) because at 6am its a little bit warm already.
I can still remember back in my hometown when September comes people around the village used to play their amplifier some Christmas Carols especially the famous song of Jose Mari Chan. ๐ (whenever I see girls and boys selling lanterns on the street … ๐ถ Just kidding! Hahahah)
Back to this Three Month Wrap-ups โ June, July and August seems like a bumpy month of my 2020. Things went tough especially on June, I broke up to my 5 yo-relationship. I had sleepless night before the break up thingy, I was the one who had a problem so … for the good of the relationship and for her I decided to put it off. It was a hard decision actually but then I need to.

Weeks & month pass after my biggest decision. I slowly see myself feeling depressed, had overthinking, sleepless nights became intense and regrets slowy sinks in so, in short I was trying to live in the past. Most of the time I was crying the whole day, desiderate to hear my Mama and Papa’s voice to ease even a little pain I’m experiencing.
Those actions continue until the very last week of July, when I saw a random quote on my IG feed stating that;
Growth is painful.
Change is painful.
But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.
Mandy Hale
I actually read this 5-6 times for my brain to process the message that was trying to tell, because if I don’t then probably I am still a mess.
This is a long process, but I started and slowly forgive myself for what I have done. I began seeking help and wisdom from my family, Godly words from my church mates and have 3 online sessions of therapy.
It was uneasy but progress I have seen is so beneficial not just physically, emotionally, mentally but of course spiritually.
As of the moment, I am happy recovering and I want to start this month full of energy, rich in insights and more.
Thank you so much for reading. We/I will always have a down moment of life but please do remember Life is beautiful, to put our time in waste for nothing!
R.
Oh I didn’t know something that big has happened to you recently…
I hope you are alright..
Hang in there! You’ll do great in September!
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Claiming that one, Janis!! I believe I can overcome this. Everything has a purpose and I hope this one had something to offer for me in the future. โฅ
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I hope so too! Everything happens for a reason ๐๐๐
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