Three Month Wrap-up

Hello September! 🍂

Fall season just started in any other countries, but here in the Philippines you can still feel its humidity in the afternoon and cold breeze in early morning (around 4-5am) because at 6am its a little bit warm already.

I can still remember back in my hometown when September comes people around the village used to play their amplifier some Christmas Carols especially the famous song of Jose Mari Chan. 😅 (whenever I see girls and boys selling lanterns on the street … 🎶 Just kidding! Hahahah)

Back to this Three Month Wrap-ups — June, July and August seems like a bumpy month of my 2020. Things went tough especially on June, I broke up to my 5 yo-relationship. I had sleepless night before the break up thingy, I was the one who had a problem so … for the good of the relationship and for her I decided to put it off. It was a hard decision actually but then I need to.

Weeks & month pass after my biggest decision. I slowly see myself feeling depressed, had overthinking, sleepless nights became intense and regrets slowy sinks in so, in short I was trying to live in the past. Most of the time I was crying the whole day, desiderate to hear my Mama and Papa’s voice to ease even a little pain I’m experiencing.

Those actions continue until the very last week of July, when I saw a random quote on my IG feed stating that;

Growth is painful.

Change is painful.

But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.

Mandy Hale

I actually read this 5-6 times for my brain to process the message that was trying to tell, because if I don’t then probably I am still a mess.

This is a long process, but I started and slowly forgive myself for what I have done. I began seeking help and wisdom from my family, Godly words from my church mates and have 3 online sessions of therapy.

It was uneasy but progress I have seen is so beneficial not just physically, emotionally, mentally but of course spiritually.

As of the moment, I am happy recovering and I want to start this month full of energy, rich in insights and more.

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Thank you so much for reading. We/I will always have a down moment of life but please do remember Life is beautiful, to put our time in waste for nothing!

R.